At The Moment
I am sitting here on a Friday afternoon pondering life, I may or may not be spooning Speculoos Cookie Butter straight from the jar into my mouth. I have been a bit quiet on the blog side. Elijah has been sick, I have gotten it from him, Elijah has been sick, I have gotten it from him and repeat. That has basically been the situation of our whole Winter. Tiresome but quite normal for a house hold with a nearly three-year old, nursery going child. During this time I have been regrouping and just thinking about our future. What I would like from life going forward and how to get there. Searching for my new identity. My whole life was so wrapped up in Darrell and also being a pilot’s wife and what that entails that when Darrell died I just did not know who I was or who I wanted to be. Moving from a small village to Cape Town five months later also did not help my cause. All the friends I had made got left behind and I had to try to pick up the life I had left in Cape Town almost ten years before. I found that to be absolutely impossible. I am a totally different person now.
I am starting to realize that I have a real love for photography and I hope to cultivate that love in the next few months into something I can do on a more permanent basis. I know I tend to irritate people by always having a camera on me and taking photographs all the time but until I pick up the courage to do a camera course this is how I am teaching myself. My mind just comes alive while I am behind the camera. After so being numb for two years I am finding this a welcome progression. I am also loving blogging. I find it really helps to write my feelings down, but in actual fact I feel such an awesome energy when I am writing about anything. I feel this wonderful uplifting energy when I am sitting behind my computer.
Which brings me to the point of this post. I am so incredibly touched by how I have been welcomed into the bloggers circle. People I have followed and admired for years have scooped me up and made me one of their own. I feel like I belong somewhere now. That new identity I have been craving is starting to take shape. So this blog post is a huge big thank you to all the lovely bloggers and Instagrammers I have met, some in person, some online who have made me feel welcome. I have always admired what you do and now I am one of them. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You lovely people are the reason why I can imagine a life going forward for Elijah and I. Today is such a beautiful day, Spring is around the corner and I am not so scared of my future without the love of my life.
I am busy planning my blog schedule for the next couple of months. I have some fantastic giveaways coming up, plus here and there I shall be updating you how we are doing as I know that is why some of you follow my blog. Elijah and I have some amazing adventures planned and I shall be letting you all know about them, as well as photographing them for you all.
So on this positive Friday I thank you all for being there and encouraging me. I could not do it without you all.
“Angela puts down the near empty jar of Spekuloos Cookie Butter”