So, this past week has not been the greatest, in fact it has been absolutely awful. Elijah and I are recovering from a nasty virus, Elijah has not been eating and all I have been doing is eating carbs. It is so horrible to see your little one in poor health and I am so blessed that I have a generally healthy boy. My heart really does go out to the people who have to deal with this on a day to day basis. All my product reviews and photo sessions have been put on hold as all I have wanted to do is bury my head under my gorgeous dusty pink duvet. But of course that is not possible with an poorly toddler.
I have debated with myself on whether to write this or not(so please nobody sue me) but I feel that getting it out in the open will contribute to my healing. We have heard nothing about the cause of Darrell’s helicopter accident in nearly two and a half years. A government organization is appointed to look into it and then file a report. That report is supposed to be made public in less than a year after the accident, failing that they are supposed to supply me with a preliminary report. A year came and went and nothing happened. Close on to two years I was interviewed on Carte Blanche on some irregularities (they are now in the process of being sued, or the intention was put out there). I had tried to contact the organization to no avail. I finally got details on who to contact from the United Kingdom equivalent and sent a quick email off to them. It went unanswered until Monday, when I got an email back with a cell phone number on the email. I was told a panel of experts where meeting the next day to discuss the case and they would give me a preliminary report the next afternoon. My heart dropped. I immediately wanted to vomit(quite easy actually as we had both been so ill). I obviously did not sleep that night and carbs were not on my mind. I phoned them the next afternoon to find out the information I have been dreading to get for over two years, only to be told the panel has been postponed for a month and that the company Darrell had worked for was suing this organization on the findings on the previous accidents’ report. All in all these are things I have to deal with on an ongoing basis.
Last night I received a message from someone that used to know Darrell ,saying they had found some old pictures of Darrell fighting a fire and would I like them. I obviously said to please send them, as I crave any information about Darrell. I did not realize how upset I would be when the pictures arrived, and I said as much to the sender, for him to reply that naturally I would be upset as that is the helicopter that he died in. Okay, so that I had not know.
So today Elijah and I both got up, me not really having slept again, to such a beautiful day. The air is crisp and fresh and there is the promise of rain tomorrow. My mind is as clear as the day and I am so grateful to all the lovely, caring friends I have made on this journey. Elijah and I are so lucky to have so many wonderful people looking out for us, just generally helping along the way. One thing I have found since the accident is that I want to help people out and share the love, like the love which has been heaped upon us. Everyone is on a journey, but in a different place and we all need to be mindful of that. To the lady shouting at the bank teller, give her a sympathetic smile, to the cold caller phoning you at supper time, say thank you very much for their time, to your domestic worker who is having a grumpy and slow day, make her a cup of tea and tell her to put her feet up for a few minutes as we never know what street of their journey they are on.
Please all have a happy and safe weekend.
Lots of love